Walk Again
To the friends that helped me stand.
When I was 18 years old
I fell hopelessly I love
With a boy who couldn’t find it in himself
To love me
It was spring break
The world felt bright
Conquerable
Then one night
That world came crashing down
It hit me the way the ground hits you
When you slip and fall
The middle of your back hits the ground just right
All your air is pushed out
You struggle to catch your breath
For a second
Disoriented
Usually when you fall
After a few seconds you can orient yourself
Stand up brush it off take a breath
Start walking again
Except this time
My breath didn’t come back
I couldn’t stand up
Walk again
The pain of the blow
Always there
That ache from the sudden hit
Never fading away
It took me months to catch my breath
Every night I would cry
Sobbing until my seemingly endless supply of tears ran dry
And all I could do was heave
And heave
And heave
My body trying so desperately to get this pain out
This thing that was hurting me gone
During the day the tears covered my eyes like a veil
I could not see
Or feel
the world
But I still felt the ache in my back
That sudden blow
Always there
Reminding me of the hit
The loss
All the while my friends stood watch
Switched their shifts
Took care of me
And with their help I started to get up
I started to walk again
About the Creator
Mikaela England
An English major at WVU just trying to find her way.
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