Ocean Waves

They started as smart remarks, which ever so quickly sparked into something more, outbursts he'd have no reasoning for.

They were like ocean waves, calm and crashing, until they became a riptide I couldn't seem to pull myself from, and no matter how much water filled my lungs, I always mistook it for air.

You see, he had me fooled, he told me he dreamt of me in colors that didn't exist, and I was stupid enough to believe this.

He tried to give me his version of the world, but I already have own, I guess I should of known he'd take it over.

When my friends asked me why I stayed, I told them.. I didn't know. I couldn't answer, I felt a lump in my throat, and when I opened my mouth, nothing but cobwebs seemed to find their way out. Sometimes I'd wondered if I'd ever get over this never ending chapter in my life.

Now, I tell them, I was just so captivated by the roses, I never paid attention to the thorns. I was so infatuated by the house, I didn't second guess the locked doors.

I tell them I couldn't help but fall in love with his warning signs.

I spun cacoons into my opal mind, only to find reasons why it was my fault. I realize now, it wasn't.

I never pictured him as THAT guy.. the one who makes you fear the walk home,

The reason you fake a phone call,

The reason you're uncomfortable in a shopping mall,

The reason you never leave your drink unaccounted for at parties,

You know... THAT GUY.

But then again, here we are.

Here we... were.