My Own Worst Enemy
The mirror doesn't lie...
For fear of rejection
I hide what is truly in my heart
And to make sure it does not happen
I will keep pushing them away
Too scared to take a shot
Wanting so badly to say stay
But I just cannot get the words out
And I hate to be alone
It sucks no doubt
To come into an empty home
So I try to fill that void
By surrounding myself with people
And what better place than the bar
Ohh boy wasn't I the fool
These past few months have changed me for sure
My thoughts and feelings
Are constantly at war
My mind is constantly racing
Trying to fight out my demons
And when I am drinking
My thoughts and expressions
They come out all wrong
Giving people the wrong impression
I end up doing and saying
A lot of things I regret
Come tomorrow morning
But I am back out there
Every chance I get
And it's getting old
I am soo tired
My soul is turning cold
I look in the mirror
At the woman staring back
I do not even recognize
I feel the world coming down around me
As the realization sets in fast
I have become my own worst enemy
My lifestyle has taken its toll
I am done taking chances
So it is time to slow my roll
And start making some changes
My drunken days are done
I am not quitting completely
But I am cutting way down
I do not need to be drunk to have fun
Maybe I will start recognizing
The woman I used to be...
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