Goodnight at 8

I put my head down

I close my mouth.

It's like all the power

inside me

has run out.

I'm shutting myself up

I'm shutting myself down.

I will no longer make a

sound.

I fear, I've said too much

Maybe it's not enough.

But still...

I fear I'll let you down,

I think I let you down.

Maybe I let myself down

as well.

Although it feels

as though

I'm pushing you away

I really want you to stay

But this time I'll say

I have to go.

Please

Don't let me walk away.

I'm begging you to see,

That when I say goodnight

I really mean

please

tell me to stay,

stay with me and I'll

stay with you.

Maybe I've been losing my hope

My grip on my dreams

Reality hits

It seems I

can't really breathe

sometimes

the air becomes too thick.

but I swear having you there

is helping.

it's really doing the trick...

You don't really give up,

You make me see the true

beauty

hidden underneath.

I know

it's all about the little things

when you only know despair,

what a

happiness thief.

I really am so lucky to have you here.

But, Anxiety falls over me

and I think I've let you down.

So now I have to say goodnight

Because honestly I'm scared

My brain screams out

what if

you will leave me

if I get to be too much?

Because

I get a little too emotional

when my world is coming down

and I feel like giving up.

so

I will try to push you away,

But I really hope you stay.

Tell me that you won't leave

and show me that you mean it.

It's reality

This is all a bit too frightening

I have to go now

Goodnight at 8 PM

tonight.

But I'll be here tomorrow if that's alright.

Trying to let you in

again.

I know that our love would be worth it.

Someday.

So please

When I say I'm about to leave

don't let me go

and instead

tell me

to

just stay.