Everything Hurts
Breathing
Speaking
Seeing You So Happy
While I've been chipped away
To Nothing
There's A Hole In My Chest
Where You Ripped Out My Heart
And Left Me Hollow
And Crying
My Mind Is Incapable Of Forgetting
All The Hurt
And You're To Blame
But I Can't Curse Your Name
I Can't Scream And Cry
Even Though The Pain Is Unbearable
Even Though I'm Lying on The Floor
Struggling To Catch My Breath
Drowning In My Tears
Because I Still Love You
Because I Don't Want To Be Weak In Front Of You
You Don't Deserve My Tears
But I Have Cried An Ocean For You
And Now When You See Me
You See Someone To Pity
I Don't Want Your Pity
I Don't Want Revenge
I Just Want To Feel Better Again
I Just Want To Feel Again
But I can't Move On
There Is Nothing To Move On From
I've Tried To Forget So Many Times
But I Can't
You Are Engraved In My Mind
The Memories Play Over And Over
Not The Memories Of Us
But Of You
The Memory Of You Kissing Her
The Way You Once Kissed Me
The Memory Of You Smiling At Her
And I Pretend To Forget
So I Don't Catch The Eyes Of Others
So I Don't Hear The Speeches
They Only Makes This Worse
It Reminds Me Of You
Of The Way You Looked At Me
When You Left Me
Broken
Confused
Everything Hurts
Walking Down The Street
Meeting New People
Starting Over
And Fearing Someone Will Hurt Me
Fearing I Won't Be Enough
This Is Your Fault
Your Fault
That I Run From Every Chance I Have
A Chance For A New Life
That I Refuse To Let Anyone Into My World
I've Cut Myself Off
Because Of What You Did To Me
I Have Lost Myself
You Took My Self Worth
Made Me Believe I Wasn't Good Enough
I Wish I Could Hate You
But I Don't
I'm Still So Deeply In Love With You
But You Didn't Love Me
You Might Have Once
But You Stopped
And I will Go On Asking Myself Why
But I will Never Find The Answer
I Will Never Have The Peace Of Mind You Have
Because I Can't Feel Anything But Hurt
I Have Tried To Stop It
I Have Poisoned Myself
Trying To Erase You
But No Matter How Much I Drink
How Many Pills I Take
You're Still There
Hovering Over Me
Watching As I Throw Up On The Bathroom Floor
Tears Pouring From My Eyes
And There Is No Comfort
Not In You
But There is Comfort In Someone Else
Someone Who Is There
Someone Who Holds Me
And Looks At Me
With The Love You Couldn't Give
But I Fear He'll Leave Too
That He Will Find Someone Better
Because I Don't Deserve Him
I Hate Comparing Him To You
You Treated Me As If I Was Disposable
And He Treats Me Like Royalty
Yet I'm Still So Scared
That He'll Walk Away
And Never Return
And Though The Hurt Is Dull Now
It's Still There
Leaving My Stomach Hollow
Scaring Me Away From Loving Someone Else
Someone Who Loves Me
More Than You Ever Said You Did
And All I Can Do Is Sit In Silent Fear
Of Him
It's Not Fair
Not To Him
I Want To Feel Love Again
I Hate Feeling So Weak
I Hate Not Being Able To Tell Him How I feel
How I Flinch When He Holds My Hand
Or Kisses Me
I Wish I Didn't Hide From Him
But I Can't Let Him Know
Of The Power He Has Over Me
He Could Crush Me So Easily
He Could Deliver The Final Blow
And My Hands Shake
And I Fear Him More
I Am So Scared
Of Someone Who Has Never Hurt Me
Someone Who Has No Intention To Break My Heart
But He Does Without Knowing
Because I Lay Awake A Night Waiting
For The Memory Of You To Be Washed Away
By Him
By His Arms
And Lips
And I Know I Am Selfish
Trying To Compare Him To You
Even Though He Is More Than You Ever Were
And I Wish I Could See Him
And Not You
But It Hurts
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