I feel like my life is in shambles.
But I know that it's not.
I guess there's a difference
between feeling and knowing.
Let me demonstrate.
I feel like eating an entire burrito.
But I know that probably wouldn't be great.
Being that I'm gluten intolerant and allergic to dairy.
I feel like sports aren't really that important.
But I know that to some people,
sports save lives.
I feel like jazz is most likely the most superior form of music.
But I know that that is completely subjective.
Most of the time, I feel like my friends are tired of me.
But I know that they would most definitely say they always want me around.
I feel like throwing my fist into a wall.
But I know that like the burrito,
that probably wouldn't be good for my body.
Or the wall.
I'm a renter.
I feel your hands on me.
I feel the way your eyes looked at me.
Undressed me in one glance.
I feel your breath on my neck.
I feel the vibrations of your words in my earsaying,
"Can you feel me"
I feel the weight of a 200+ pound man over me.
I feel the loss of my dignity.
My agency.
My humanity.
I feel every ache and pain that I felt in that first moment
and each moment after.
I feel broken.
Split open.
Carved out.
Hollow.
I feel you.
But remember,
There's a difference.
Years have gone by.
And it's not.
About the Creator
Eliza Stone
I give my life an A for effort.
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