Dear Noob

to you,

i cant say that im surprised.

i cant say that i didn't see this coming.

to be quite frank, why would you choose me?

you obviously treated her better from the start.

and look at me i'm the one who "encouraged" you to start dating.

we were just "friends with benefits"

but of course i wanted something more with you.

so we decided to agree that we were dating...

and there we went wrong.

we probably had like one real date.

with her you went out every other day.

the day that killed me the most when you were with her

is when you and i had a great night

after you dropped me off and were going to see me later

you saw her.

after that GREAT night.

my heart hurt.

i got jealous.

but of course her over me right?

you thought i was in love with my best friend.

you were jealous and didn't say anything.

when i poured my heart out to you and got vulnerable

why didn't you say anything?

i wanted you to. i wanted you to show some heart or fight for me.

getting vulnerable with you...

sharing my journals, my stories, all my most inner thoughts

for you to drop me so quick.

after i told you what was going on inside my head and my heart.

i thought we were going to go on a fresh good start but i was wrong.

even though you still think my best friend and i are inevitably going to happen...

it's you who made me happy.

the times we spent i was truly happy when i was with you.

i really wanted to try with you

i wanted to conquer my fear of commitment with you.

but of course

i was left disappointed.

now off to start to find someone new

to start from the beginning.

but these days

i'm scared to get vulnerable.

because what if he hurts me like you did.

as of right now

it hurts to see your posts about her

because that's all i wanted.

for others to know of you and i

but all they saw was her.

i'm hurt

i'm sad

i'm angry.

not over it for now

but soon i will be.

back to the real world it shall be

you were scared to say love.

i just wish you weren't.